pilgrimage
Posted At: Fri 14 Oct 2005	Posted By: Derek Nobuyuki信幸 Wallace
Categories:Motorcycling , life

i feel the strong need to pilgrimage back out past hope to visit Julia’s site…

i dont know why i didnt sign your guestbook with my thoughts….

i guess this year hasn’t really turned out how i thought it would….
less than 12,000km racked up this year, plus i had two accidents after yours….
i would exclaim what a horrible and depressing month june was… but then again i said the same thing about august… our world just isn’t the same without you… the world feels skewed… off-kilter….

sometimes it feels like the bike is the only escape in this world…
but at the same time, it’s a major source of stress (PMS=Parked Motorcycle Syndrome and Post-Accident Anxiety)… i may be selling my motorcycle soon… but biking has ingrained itself into who i am… i’ll probably buy another bike (Triumph Daytona 675 triple, i hope) before I buy my next car (Audi A3/A4)…. but this one thing… there isn’t really any closure to it…

i feel the love… but hope it’s not for lost… i miss you and i feel i should really try my best to live… to keep living… in the past weeks things seem to spiral… nearly bit it twice… well… once i nearly got smacked from behind from a car at non-turtle speeds on the highway in the rain… and another time… i just found my self drifting through traffic cutting left and right (at least i ALWAYS signal in advance) but i began to wonder… what am i doing?!?! why am i cutting through traffic?? you could race through this sometimes damned city for what? to get there 15 minutes faster?

i guess i’ve seen a number of people quit riding this year…
there have been a lot of accidents this year… (Glad you’re okay Graeme, Fiona, Kenneth, and everyone else…)
i can’t say i could blame people for giving it up…
i think monica was debating selling her bike for a while…
and honestly… i’m sure i wouldn’t really care too much if she did sell her bike…
we became friends because of motorbikes… but we’re not friends because of motorbikes…

i think julia has succeeded in what i believe is one of her goals…
turn riders into community and community into family…

i miss you but will look up to you the rest of my life…
Derek Nobuyuki 菫｡蟷ｸ Wallace
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