Jaded X~mas
Posted At: Sun 25 Dec 2005	Posted By: Derek Nobuyuki信幸 Wallace
Categories:life

so it’s X~mas again…

i was trying to not celebrate x~mas this year…. but people have been sucking me into it…

this year, i was planning to be in taiwan for the first 2 1/2 weeks of december, then in korea for th next 2-3 weeks including x~mas… my sister wasn’t even going to be home for the holidays planning to be in timbuktu (aka tombouctou)… but the way things have unfolded… i’ve pushed fleeing the country until March… my sister came to Vancouver in the mid month… and we even had a holiday dinner while she was here… which was alright, i guess…

so now it’s xmas eve…
things lately have been mostly happy… and people are sucking me into celebrating x~mas which i don’t really mind hehe… but it feels financially irresponsible for me to go and spend a lot of money to celebrate christmas this year…

while my roommate and his girlfriend are out of the province this holidays, they left their xmas tree here… which is nice and festive… it’s a cute little tree with fiber optics that make the tree light up… (you know like the toys from the 80s… fiber optics toys)

so i’ve actually only purchashed two gifts this year…
one from one of my favourite stores (the japanese bowl store!)
and the other with the promise of enjoyable crafty activities i can do with the recipient.
so i guess under my xmas tree… i have two gifts…

however, this xmas — going all smooth and happy-like– became somewhat jaded…
with heavy rain clouds soaking me on my motorcycle… threatening to low side me with oil and rain on the road… or broadside me by some stupid cager… long story short… unhappy with someone… when i got off the phone with her i was angry just unhappy… but by the time i made it home, i was pissed off… she really dragged down my whole xmas

it really sucks being home alone, pissed off, and hungry on xmas eve

but we have this tradition… of opening one present on xmas eve (i usually wait till after midnight though) otherwise we’d have to wait until some religious stuff forced on us in the morning was over before opening any gifts. Feeling really down… I figured I might as well follow the tradition anyways, even if one gift is 50% of the gifts sitting there under the tree…

long boring-rant short, I ended up opening a gift (after midnight though) and am soo happy and grateful… the meticulous effort and thought put into a hand made card and amazingly thoughtful and appropriate gift i love so much. The sheer thoughtfulness and caringness has made my xmas wonderful again… hehe… i feel so loved

Happy X~mas… i think in life, things can be going sour… but with every down there is an up… such is the nature of life… up and down…

Derek Nobuyuki 菫｡蟷ｸ Wallace
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PS: Thanks Smita!! for talking to me while i was upset… can’t wait to have our Mehta-A-Thon!